Why?

Everything hurts. I can’t breathe. I can’t cope. I’m tired of hurting. Of being in pain. All. The. Time.

Unworthy.

Everything hurts. Frustrated and annoyed. Tired of not meaning anything to anyone. Guys are just after one thing, even if they are friends. I’m not worth the effort and that honestly hurts. Physio tomorrow for my wrist/thumb. I’m sick of hurting.

Worthless.

Everything hurts. Saw the doctor today and this is what’s wrong with my hand. It just seems like I’m not allowed to have any little bit of joy in my life.

More.

Everything hurts. Abdominal discomfort and pain. Spasms. Wrist pain, back spasms. Migraines. Low mood. Uncomfortable. Obese. Fat. Grotesque. Swollen. Bloated. Full. Feeling sick. Greedy. Gluttony. Lonely. Alone.

Hold On.

Everything hurts. Really struggling right now. I don’t know what to do or how to make things better.

What’s The Reason?

Everything hurts. Wrist/thumb is still so sore and painful. Abdominal discomfort and pain. I’m forever scared that it’s going to be an obstruction. Low mood, deep depression. Anxiety and fatigue. Fear. I feel like I’ve missed so much of life. That this is it. The mental makes the physical even harder to deal with.

Disillusioned.

Everything hurts. Mood is low. Tearful. Trying to fight the negative emotions and thoughts. Wrist is still hurting. Abdominal discomfort. I’m so scared of my body.

Conflict.

Everything hurts. Tired of the arguments. Of the frustration. I can’t help how I am. I’m trying my best. It’s hard to keep fighting.

Light & Dark.

Everything hurts. Wrist is still sore. Abdominal discomfort and swelling. Back spasms. Low mood. Tired and frustrated.

Outside.

Everything hurts. Wrist is still swollen and tender. Quite painful. I’m a walking disaster. Back spasms are intense. I had a telephone appointment with the mental health guy, said they’d done all they can and that they won’t offer any therapy. Apparently he spoke to a therapist and they said that it’s pointless as I […]

Ouch.

Everything hurts. My wrist/thumb is still swollen and sore. I’ve not a clue how I’ve hurt it. Still low mood and tearful. Struggling to cope. Trying to push through but any of the things I get a little enjoyment from, now cause injury and pain. What’s fair about that?

Sprain.

Everything hurts. More tears and upset. Wondering why I try. Fatigued and exhausted. Sick of the problems. I hate being a burden.

Tears Fall Hard.

Everything hurts. The sadness is gripped around me tightly. I’m at a loss. Struggling. Fed up of having to deal with various health issues. Wondering why I’ve been made to be alone.

Gripped By Sadness.

Everything hurts. Same old. Same old. The mental torture just keeps on coming. What’s wrong with me? Why don’t people want to be with me?

Dirty.

Everything hurts. Still struggling on. Frustrated. So very frustrated. I loathe periods. Feel so disgusting and gross. My body hurts. My mind is tired.

Wall.

Everything hurts. Started my period again. Urgh. Back is bad. I’ve got a silly cough and sore chest. No motivation. Fatigued. Exhausted. Not sleeping well. Just started to get a pain in my heel. It’s always something. I feel like a loser. I am a loser. I don’t know what to do with myself. Low […]

Spare.

Everything hurts. Abdominal pain and discomfort. Low mood, depression, fatigue. Why am I not good enough? I wish I knew why I’ve never been attractive to anyone. Am I that repulsive? It can’t just be others that are the problem, you’d think it would be impossible for everyone to not like me, that just leaves […]

Plunged.

Everything hurts. My mood has dropped significantly. It’s like trying to run through wet cement. It makes it hard to be hopeful.

Wrapped In Sadness.

Everything hurts. The tears are falling. My mood has dropped off a cliff. The pain is still here. Nothing changes. At least not for me. Stuck watching life go on for everyone else. Yet I’m on pause. It gets harder to cope with everything when my mood drops. More fatigued. Exhausted at having to always […]

Trying Isn’t Enough.

Everything hurts. Still struggling on. Still wondering what I’ve done to deserve all this. Seems unfair. Bloated and swollen. Scared and afraid. Living on a knifes edge. I try and try but it’s never enough. Why don’t people like me?

Pain. Always.

Everything hurts. Getting very frustrated and angry that this is my life. I’m scared of everything I eat. My body hurts all over. It robs me of a normal life. I’ll never achieve anything.

Urgent.

Everything hurts. Trying to keep going and push forward but it’s so difficult having to deal with health issues that constantly hold me back. My life isn’t my own. I can’t do what I want to.

Hopeful.

Everything hurts. Trying to remain hopeful that the blockage has passed. Went to the infusion clinic today just to let them know what’s been happening. They seem to think it was a one off, likely caused by food poisoning, trapped wind and a minor obstruction. I’m hoping they’re right. I don’t need the stress or […]

Sad.

Everything hurts. Sick of hurting. Sick of it all.

PTSD.

Everything hurts. The fear is real. So anxious and stressed out. It’s like always waiting for the other foot to come down. I’m trying so so so hard. Yet I’m not getting anywhere. I’m scared.

Obstruction?

Everything hurts. I’m so scared. I had either a possible bowel obstruction or severe trapped wind yesterday/last night. I feel sore today and generally unwell. I’m so fed up.

Extreme.

Everything hurts. Horrendous pain.

Injured?

Everything hurts. I’m not sure how I’ve even managed to do this but I’ve really hurt the joint between my big toe and my foot. Had another phone call from the mental health department and it was utterly pointless. Just called to say that nothing had changed.

Snap Back.

Everything hurts. Emotional. Crying. Sadness. Pain. Discomfort. Sore. It just never ends.

Infusion 42.

Everything hurts. Rough night, didn’t sleep very well. Struggled a lot today. Sweating, light headed, hurting. More of the same.

Ton Of Bricks.

Everything hurts. Upset tummy. Back spasms. Depression. Fatigued. Trying to push through as best as I can.

Scared.

Everything hurts. Still struggling but trying as always to move forward.

Runaway.

Everything hurts. Struggling a lot to deal with everything. A prisoner in my own body. I don’t know what to do anymore. Stagnant. On pause. Why am I so scared?

Brick Wall.

Everything hurts. I feel boxed in. Held back. Made to suffer. I don’t know how to get better. I’m scared. I’m worried that I’m not worth the effort for people to stick around.

Ignored.

Everything hurts. Back spasms. Depression. Abdominal discomfort. Migraines. Anxiety. Stress. I’m scared that I’ve been left behind. I’m so far removed from my peers. I’m not normal. I hate it. No one should have to deal with issues, especially health ones. Why do people pull away? What have I done? I give too much of […]

Uncertain.

Everything hurts. I think it’s easing but no. Still in pain. I’m tired and fed up. It never happens to me.

System Is Broken.

Everything hurts. More of the same. Exhausted and fed up. I’m not doing good, feel like I’m in a fish bowl and everyone else can live their life. I don’t want to be jealous or upset when people share exciting life news. Yet I can’t help but to feel sad and wonder why those things […]

Waste Of Time.

Everything hurts. Waiting for a call between 10:30-11. They never called all day. It’s so inconsiderate and rude. Back spasms. Abdominal spasms. Migraines. Depression. Anxiety. Just everything on repeat.

Hurt.

Everything hurts. Back spasms are still bad. Migraines. Abdominal pain. Depression. Anxiety. Just everything all at once. I feel trapped. I’ve no confidence.

Lost.

Everything hurts. Struggling with painful back spasms which stab through to my abdomen. Migraines and juddering. Low mood and anxiety. Why aren’t I good enough for anyone? I’m scared of life. My health problems are debilitating and limiting in most ways yet I’m scared to live. I’m afraid of the rejection that I know will […]