Tonne.

Everything hurts. I’m really worried about my weigh in on Wednesday during my infusion. I know I’ve put weight on. I can see it and feel it. I hate it. I can’t stop the constant food noise in my head. I just want to stop eating. I want to be able to eat healthier without […]

Over.

Everything hurts. Stressed and worried. Sad. Really down. Crying. Pain. Heartache and longing. Too fat to function. Disgusting.

Fattest.

Everything hurts. Fed up. Hate this. In pain. Exhausted. Fatigued. Drained. Nothing left. Sadness.

Drained.

Everything hurts. Can’t stop eating. I hate it. I loathe myself. Hurting. Inside and out. Frustrated. In the way. Fatigued. Fat. Failure. Good for nothing. Sadness. Anxiety. Stress. Worry.

Runaway.

Everything hurts. Struggling. When am I not. Really down and low.

Tag.

Everything hurts. Skin tag came off and wouldn’t stop bleeding. Ended up going to a walk in clinic. More bandages and advice that it needs taking off permanently. More to deal with. I’ll have to contact the GP in the morning. Tired. Unhappy. Lonely.

Be Kind.

Everything hurts. Tired. Struggling. Disillusioned. Unhappy. What is happiness?

Resentful.

Everything hurts. A disappointment to everyone. A disappointment to myself. This isn’t how life was meant to be. It isn’t how life was sold to me when I was younger. Why have I had to walk this difficult path? Why am I different? Why does my body have to be so different to others? Less […]

Judged.

Everything hurts. Past things coming to surface. Peoples true thoughts. I’m a disappointment. Not worthy. In pain.

Trapped.

Everything hurts. Struggling more and more. I need to stop eating. Just sew my mouth shut. Body hurts. In pain. Tired.

No More.

Everything hurts. Struggling. Hate my fat. Hate my body. I’m grotesque and ugly. Vile. Disgusting. No personality. Boring. Dull. A loser. A nobody. Forgotten.

Abdomen.

Everything hurts. Deep discomfort and pain in my abdomen. Stomach ache. Feelings off. Sadness. So sad. Fatigued. Irritable. Migraines. Body aches. Nauseous. Tired. Of it all. I don’t know what it’s like to not be in pain.

Not Known.

Everything hurts. Finding myself more and more upset and emotional. What’s it like to be loved? I’m undesirable. Hurting. It hurts deep within. Try. Always trying. Struggling. Always struggling.

Choke.

Everything hurts. I hate choking. Vomit. Pain. Tension. Hurting. Sleepy. Tired.

Mediocre.

Everything hurts. Talentless. Loneliness. Sadness. Pain. Discomfort. Disappointment. Disillusioned. A loser. A nobody. Forgettable.

Gripe.

Everything hurts. Abdominal pain. Stomach ache. Sadness. Fatigued. Trying but it’s not enough.

Alone.

Everything hurts. Abdominal pain. Stomach ache. Unease. Sad. Such sadness.

Discomfort.

Everything hurts. Abdominal pain. Stress and anxiety. Needless drama. Sadness. Fatigued. Hurt. Pain.

Pit.

Everything hurts. Sickness. Nauseous. Unhappy. Lonely. Swollen. Pain. Always pain. Sadness. Upset stomach. Drained.

Out Of Body.

Everything hurts. Bad bad migraines. Hurting. In pain. Body aches. Painful. Sadness.

No Spoons.

Everything hurts. Drained. Fatigued. Depressed. Fed up. Fat. Always fat. Ugly. Always ugly. Tired. Sleepy. Hurting. In pain. Always. At a loss. Not so much a crossroads as spaghetti junction!

Pressure.

Everything hurts. Inside and out. Fed up. Feeling no joy.

Swollen Feet.

Everything hurts. I need to be thin. It’s killing me carrying this weight around. I hate it. I just want to know what it’s like to be a normal size. Hurting. Sadness. Loneliness.

Heat.

Everything hurts. Too hot.

Dripping.

Everything hurts. It’s too hot. I feel disgusting. Too fat for this heat. Hurting. Sad. Emotional.

Fattest.

Everything hurts. Upset. Emotional. Frustrated. Migraines. Pain. Hurting. It never ends. Lonely. A loser. Unwanted.

Boil.

Everything hurts. I’m sweating from areas I didn’t know you could sweat from. Swollen with the heat. Uncomfortable. Unattractive. Need to be more independent. More self reliant. Hurting. Exhausted. Drained. Sadness. Always sadness. I miss the sea.

Off Camber.

Everything hurts. More of the same. Usual nonsense. Trying to be ok. Failing mostly. Uncomfortable. Sore. A fat bitch. Eating too much.

Choke.

Everything hurts. No one cares. No one asks if I’m ok. Really bad depression. Heavy sadness. Not at peace. Hurting. Sore. Frustrated. Less than. Sub human.

Off.

Everything hurts. Feeling unwell. Off. Not right. Exhausted. Drained. Fatigued. Stressed. Anxiety. Depression. Sadness. Hopelessness.

Ugly.

Everything hurts. Ashamed. Disgusting. How am I meant to have confidence in myself when I’ve got so many gross issues? I hate my bum. No matter how much I clean it, it’s always dirty. I hate hate hate it!! I’ll never find a romantic partner 😦 why does everything have to be disgusting? There’re all […]

Sea.

Everything hurts. Painful feet. Exhausted. Sadness. Hidden sadness. Away from home. Need a break.

Flush.

Everything hurts. Far too muggy and hot. Hurting. Migraines. Tired. Drained.

Arms Length.

Everything hurts. Struggling. No words.

Irritated.

Everything hurts. Hot and sweaty. Sore and hurting. Sad and sadder. Fed up. Over eating. A fat pig.

Over.

Everything hurts. Fatigued and fat. Ugly and useless. Grotesque and gluttonous. Sadness and sore. Tired. Tired of it all.

Soaking.

Everything hurts. Getting an Epsom salts bath. Still swollen. Can’t stop eating. Thinking about food all. The. Time. It’s constant. Endless. I can’t think of nothing else. Ashamed of myself. Of my body. Of my life. Or lack of one. Whenever I think of the life I thought I’d have, it feels so alien to […]

Sticky.

Everything hurts. Another hot day. Uncomfortable. Wish I was thin. Exhausted. Hurting. In pain. Sadness. At a loss. Gross. Obese. Grotesque.

62nd.

Everything hurts. Infusions really knock me out. Heatwave again. Swollen feet. Migraines. Stress. Sadness. Anxiety.

Heat Rises.

Everything hurts. It’s too hot. Far far too hot. Melting. Unwell. Off. Exhausted. Fatigued. Drained. In pain. Sadness. Loneliness.