Dreams Hurt.

Everything hurts. I used to find relief in my dreams but now it’s just hurt. I can’t fantasise anymore without reality hovering above. All my dreams are stupid. All my dreams aren’t going to come true. I live in a fantasy land that suffocates me with reality at every turn. I’ll never get the type […]

Out Out.

Everything hurts. Trying.

Talking into the Abyss.

Everything hurts. I can’t breathe for the sadness in my chest. I feel heart broken. Like I’ll burst with sadness. I can’t stop the tears from falling. The negativity going round and around my mind. A rollercoaster that I can’t get off. It’s constant. Why can’t I feel happiness? I’ve tried to talk to friends […]

Noise.

Everything hurts. Constant food noise. Louder and louder! It’s too much. Sadness. Pain. Despair.

Gutter.

Everything hurts. More tears. More pain. Sadness.

.

Everything hurts. Tears and tantrums. Lost.

Going Down.

Everything hurts. More tears. More despair. More pain. More suffering. Exhausted. Drained. Alone. So lonely. It hurts. Being unwanted. I can’t stop thinking about Covid lockdowns and the fact that not one person reached out to me. No hanging out over zoom or FaceTime. Nobody cared. Nobody cares.

Stomach.

Everything hurts. Lots of stomach ache and discomfort. Exhausted. Hate being fat. Useless. Unloved. Sad. So fed up.

Adrift.

Everything hurts. Same old.

Wrinkles.

Everything hurts. I look awful. No life left in me. I hate being fat. The constant food noise! It’s so loud. I just want help and no one will help me. I’m in pain. Hurting. Sadness. Loneliness. Why can’t I find my partner? Am I that undesirable? I don’t want to be alone forever. It […]

Hot Flushes.

Everything hurts. Night sweats. Brain fog. Hot and cold. Back ache. Migraines. Depression. Anxiety. Sadness. Pain. Always pain. Exhausted. Drained. Fed up.

Anxiety.

Everything hurts. Extreme anxiety. I hate it. Extreme sadness. Exhausted. In pain.

Flab.

Everything hurts. Walking on eggshells. Can’t have an opinion. What do I know about life? Held back. Behind everyone else. Hurting. Frustrated. Fat. Fatigued. A failure.

Breast Pain.

Everything hurts. Extreme breast pain all day. Abdominal discomfort. Sadness. Exhausted. Drained. Fatigued. Achy. Tired of it all.

Gross.

Everything hurts. Feeling gross and disgusting. I’m just falling apart. The heartache is crushing. Pain. Discomfort.

Resented.

Everything hurts. Back spasms. Back pain. Weakness. Exhausted. Fatigued. Abdominal pain. Discomfort. Strained. Tears and sadness. Only useful to people when they want something. I feel judged and resented.

Blame Game.

Everything hurts. Another let down. Useless. Nausea. Pain. Sadness. Trapped.

Sadness is Contagious.

Everything hurts. It’s hard to fix yourself when you live with others that are also struggling. Feeding off each other’s sadness. It’s hard. Really hard. Hurting. In pain. I’ve done too much.

Pass Out.

Everything hurts. I did too much. I tried to be normal. I’m hurting. I’m sad. I’m lonely. I’m lost.

Gas.

Everything hurts. My abdomen is so hard and swollen. Uncomfortable. Hurting. Pain. Migraines. Worthless. Useless. A stain on this earth. Really struggling. Hate that I’m not able to function and live a full life. Crippling shyness. A bore. Dull. Lame. Afraid of rejection. Stupid really when I’m rejected every minute of the day, every day. […]

Quiet.

Everything hurts. Sad.

Queasy.

Everything hurts. Off. Sickly. Exhausted. Drained. Upset. Emotional. Constantly asking why why why? I crave to be loved and to love. I want to know what that feels like. People are ashamed of me. Ashamed to be seen with me. Friends don’t mind as being beside me makes them look better. It’s heartbreaking. Soul crushing. […]

Grasp.

Everything hurts. Grasped in sadness. Grasped in pain. Grasped in loneliness. Grasped in fear. Scared of what will become of me when I’m truly alone in this world. Heart aches for someone to love. Heart aches to be ‘normal’. Why is it so difficult for me to find my way in life? Why was this […]

Drained.

Everything hurts. Absolutely exhausted. In pain.

Infusion.

Everything hurts. Exhausted.

Dread.

Everything hurts. Weigh in tomorrow. I know I’ve gained weight. I can feel it. Heavy. In pain. Sadness. Lost.

What Went Wrong?

Everything hurts. Same old bullshit. Same old pain. Same old loneliness. Isolated. Cast aside and forgotten about. Left behind. No one looking for me.

XXXXXXXXX Large.

Everything hurts. I’m not coping. It feels like everyone is shrinking and I’m getting larger. I now don’t meet the NHS criteria to get the weight loss injections. It honestly feels like I have to be at deaths door in order to be allowed to lose weight. How unlucky can I be that they changed […]

Tonne.

Everything hurts. I’m really worried about my weigh in on Wednesday during my infusion. I know I’ve put weight on. I can see it and feel it. I hate it. I can’t stop the constant food noise in my head. I just want to stop eating. I want to be able to eat healthier without […]

Over.

Everything hurts. Stressed and worried. Sad. Really down. Crying. Pain. Heartache and longing. Too fat to function. Disgusting.

Fattest.

Everything hurts. Fed up. Hate this. In pain. Exhausted. Fatigued. Drained. Nothing left. Sadness.

Drained.

Everything hurts. Can’t stop eating. I hate it. I loathe myself. Hurting. Inside and out. Frustrated. In the way. Fatigued. Fat. Failure. Good for nothing. Sadness. Anxiety. Stress. Worry.

Runaway.

Everything hurts. Struggling. When am I not. Really down and low.

Tag.

Everything hurts. Skin tag came off and wouldn’t stop bleeding. Ended up going to a walk in clinic. More bandages and advice that it needs taking off permanently. More to deal with. I’ll have to contact the GP in the morning. Tired. Unhappy. Lonely.

Be Kind.

Everything hurts. Tired. Struggling. Disillusioned. Unhappy. What is happiness?

Resentful.

Everything hurts. A disappointment to everyone. A disappointment to myself. This isn’t how life was meant to be. It isn’t how life was sold to me when I was younger. Why have I had to walk this difficult path? Why am I different? Why does my body have to be so different to others? Less […]

Judged.

Everything hurts. Past things coming to surface. Peoples true thoughts. I’m a disappointment. Not worthy. In pain.

Trapped.

Everything hurts. Struggling more and more. I need to stop eating. Just sew my mouth shut. Body hurts. In pain. Tired.

No More.

Everything hurts. Struggling. Hate my fat. Hate my body. I’m grotesque and ugly. Vile. Disgusting. No personality. Boring. Dull. A loser. A nobody. Forgotten.

Abdomen.

Everything hurts. Deep discomfort and pain in my abdomen. Stomach ache. Feelings off. Sadness. So sad. Fatigued. Irritable. Migraines. Body aches. Nauseous. Tired. Of it all. I don’t know what it’s like to not be in pain.