Hesitation.

Everything hurts. Hurt and upset. They never say sorry. They never take what I say seriously. I’m not heard. I’m managed and tolerated. Belittling. I hate it. I feel so small. They don’t see me as a nearly 40 year old. I’m still a child to them. In pain. Migraines.

Nervous.

Everything hurts. Awkward. Different. Shy. Hurting. Exhausted. Lonely.

Never Been Loved.

Everything hurts. I know age is only a number but I’m nearly 40 and I’ve never been loved. I’ve had sex but never made love. It brings me to tears when I think about it. Never had a relationship. Never had anyone interested in me. It’s lonely and heartbreaking. I’ve never been looked at with […]

Gluttony.

Everything hurts. I don’t need to eat. Swollen. Bloated. Nauseous. Sadness. Exhausted. Drained. Aching. No energy.

Achy.

Everything hurts. Tired.

Wind.

Everything hurts. Still struggling with trapped wind or whatever it is. I’m exhausted. Drained. Hurting. Uncomfortable. Sad.

Trapped.

Everything hurts. In pain. Trapped wind or something. It’s been over 24 hours now. I’m tired and fed up. Laying down seems to help. Just want to be back to my normal. I don’t know what it’s like to not be in pain. Loneliness. Emptiness. Hollow.

No Show.

Everything hurts. Intense trapped wind. Not feeling well. Swollen. Bloated. Chest pains. Depression. Exhaustion. Loneliness. Nearly 40 and nothing in my life. It’s breaking me. I’m broken. I’m defective. There’s obviously something wrong with me. Can’t stop the tears from falling. I won’t be missed or remembered. No one cares.

Lonely.

Everything hurts. What will happen to me? Why can’t I make real friends? I try and try but I just end up getting used. Hurting. Not feeling very well. Pain. Sadness. At sea.

Different.

Everything hurts. It really hurts. Deep inside and out. Heartbroken by circumstances. Heartbroken even though I’ve never been loved. Always on the outside. Really really fed up. Depression. Worthless.

Shame.

Everything hurts. Can’t make friends. Sad. Lonely. Nausea. Pain. Feel disgusting. Body issues aren’t pretty. How will I ever find anyone to look past it and see me? Too ugly. Too obese. Too dull. Too much of a loser. Where is my community? Why do I have to stand alone?

Stop.

Everything hurts. I need to stop.

Tire.

Everything hurts. Frustrated and angry. In pain and sad. Too much food. Lack of willpower. Useless. Worthless.

Fear.

Everything hurts. I don’t know how to handle being alone. I’m not coping. I’m scared to meet people as they just leave. No one reaches out to me. Hurting. In pain. Suffering. Suffocating.

No Say.

Everything hurts. I’m blamed for everything. Misunderstood. Misread. I’m tired of it. Why am I not allowed to be heard but everyone else is? Why does that make me undesirable? How much more of myself do I have to give to keep friends around? To make friends? I’m so lost. Lonely. Hurting. Sad.

Unwanted.

Everything hurts. How do I become someone that people like? That people want to be around? What’s wrong with me? Why do I find it so hard to be “normal”? Hurting. Even my dreams cause pain. I don’t get the happy ending in my dreams either. What’s wrong with the me? I wish someone would […]

Done.

Everything hurts. Struggling. Fed up. Nothing changes.

Bite.

Everything hurts. Been bitten by something. Sore. Tired. Achy. Sad. Lonely. Out of control.

Constant.

Everything hurts. Fed up. Hate myself.

Solid.

Everything hurts. Stomach is rock solid. Pain. Disconnected. Discomfort. Disheartening. Sad. Angry. Irritated.

Gipping.

Everything hurts. Had enough.

Off.

Everything hurts. Sickness. Nauseous. Boiling up. Not well. Feeling poorly. Hurting. Alone.

Sickness.

Everything hurts. Sickness and diarrhoea. Sadness. Frustration. So angry at my life. The emptiness. The loneliness. So unaccomplished. So scared to make connections. Afraid of the hurt. Of being left eventually.

Abdominal Pain.

Everything hurts. Deep breaths. Acute pain. Hoping it eases. Feel sick. Need the toilet. Exhausted. Sad. Tired. Uncomfortable. Migraines. Never ends.

Disgust.

Everything hurts. Fatter and fatter. I can’t stop. The noise is too much. I’m so angry at myself. I’m angry at my body. At life itself. I’ve no back bone. I don’t rebel. I never pushed the boundaries. Weak and pathetic. A doormat. Worthless. Useless. A drain on everyone and everything. Frustrated. Upset. Lost and […]

Cold.

Everything hurts. Too fat yet I feel the cold. Exhausted.

Sweats.

Everything hurts. Exhausted. Drained. Fatigued. Migraines. Intense. Achy. Sore. Uncomfortable. Pain. Loneliness. Emotional.

Tired.

Everything hurts. Less achy but still fatigued. Exhausted. Drained. Cold. Sore.

Jabs.

Everything hurts. Feeling very unwell. Weak and hurting. I hate this.

Incredible Bulk.

Everything hurts. Frustrated and annoyed. Hurting and exhausted. Covid and flu jabs.

Fat or Ugly. You can’t be both.

Everything hurts. Sadly, I’m both. Raw hurt. Big tears. Such sadness. I’m lost. Scared. Afraid. Why is it so easy for everyone else? Migraines. Sickness.

Blinders.

Everything hurts. Trying to not look into the sadness. Failing. But trying. In pain. Empty.

Dreams Hurt.

Everything hurts. I used to find relief in my dreams but now it’s just hurt. I can’t fantasise anymore without reality hovering above. All my dreams are stupid. All my dreams aren’t going to come true. I live in a fantasy land that suffocates me with reality at every turn. I’ll never get the type […]

Out Out.

Everything hurts. Trying.

Talking into the Abyss.

Everything hurts. I can’t breathe for the sadness in my chest. I feel heart broken. Like I’ll burst with sadness. I can’t stop the tears from falling. The negativity going round and around my mind. A rollercoaster that I can’t get off. It’s constant. Why can’t I feel happiness? I’ve tried to talk to friends […]

Noise.

Everything hurts. Constant food noise. Louder and louder! It’s too much. Sadness. Pain. Despair.

Gutter.

Everything hurts. More tears. More pain. Sadness.

.

Everything hurts. Tears and tantrums. Lost.

Going Down.

Everything hurts. More tears. More despair. More pain. More suffering. Exhausted. Drained. Alone. So lonely. It hurts. Being unwanted. I can’t stop thinking about Covid lockdowns and the fact that not one person reached out to me. No hanging out over zoom or FaceTime. Nobody cared. Nobody cares.

Stomach.

Everything hurts. Lots of stomach ache and discomfort. Exhausted. Hate being fat. Useless. Unloved. Sad. So fed up.