Queasy.

Everything hurts. Off. Sickly. Exhausted. Drained. Upset. Emotional. Constantly asking why why why? I crave to be loved and to love. I want to know what that feels like. People are ashamed of me. Ashamed to be seen with me. Friends don’t mind as being beside me makes them look better. It’s heartbreaking. Soul crushing. […]

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Grasp.

Everything hurts. Grasped in sadness. Grasped in pain. Grasped in loneliness. Grasped in fear. Scared of what will become of me when I’m truly alone in this world. Heart aches for someone to love. Heart aches to be ‘normal’. Why is it so difficult for me to find my way in life? Why was this […]

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Dread.

Everything hurts. Weigh in tomorrow. I know I’ve gained weight. I can feel it. Heavy. In pain. Sadness. Lost.

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XXXXXXXXX Large.

Everything hurts. I’m not coping. It feels like everyone is shrinking and I’m getting larger. I now don’t meet the NHS criteria to get the weight loss injections. It honestly feels like I have to be at deaths door in order to be allowed to lose weight. How unlucky can I be that they changed […]

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Tonne.

Everything hurts. I’m really worried about my weigh in on Wednesday during my infusion. I know I’ve put weight on. I can see it and feel it. I hate it. I can’t stop the constant food noise in my head. I just want to stop eating. I want to be able to eat healthier without […]

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Over.

Everything hurts. Stressed and worried. Sad. Really down. Crying. Pain. Heartache and longing. Too fat to function. Disgusting.

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Drained.

Everything hurts. Can’t stop eating. I hate it. I loathe myself. Hurting. Inside and out. Frustrated. In the way. Fatigued. Fat. Failure. Good for nothing. Sadness. Anxiety. Stress. Worry.

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Tag.

Everything hurts. Skin tag came off and wouldn’t stop bleeding. Ended up going to a walk in clinic. More bandages and advice that it needs taking off permanently. More to deal with. I’ll have to contact the GP in the morning. Tired. Unhappy. Lonely.

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Resentful.

Everything hurts. A disappointment to everyone. A disappointment to myself. This isn’t how life was meant to be. It isn’t how life was sold to me when I was younger. Why have I had to walk this difficult path? Why am I different? Why does my body have to be so different to others? Less […]

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Judged.

Everything hurts. Past things coming to surface. Peoples true thoughts. I’m a disappointment. Not worthy. In pain.

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Trapped.

Everything hurts. Struggling more and more. I need to stop eating. Just sew my mouth shut. Body hurts. In pain. Tired.

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No More.

Everything hurts. Struggling. Hate my fat. Hate my body. I’m grotesque and ugly. Vile. Disgusting. No personality. Boring. Dull. A loser. A nobody. Forgotten.

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Abdomen.

Everything hurts. Deep discomfort and pain in my abdomen. Stomach ache. Feelings off. Sadness. So sad. Fatigued. Irritable. Migraines. Body aches. Nauseous. Tired. Of it all. I don’t know what it’s like to not be in pain.

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Not Known.

Everything hurts. Finding myself more and more upset and emotional. What’s it like to be loved? I’m undesirable. Hurting. It hurts deep within. Try. Always trying. Struggling. Always struggling.

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Mediocre.

Everything hurts. Talentless. Loneliness. Sadness. Pain. Discomfort. Disappointment. Disillusioned. A loser. A nobody. Forgettable.

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Gripe.

Everything hurts. Abdominal pain. Stomach ache. Sadness. Fatigued. Trying but it’s not enough.

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Pit.

Everything hurts. Sickness. Nauseous. Unhappy. Lonely. Swollen. Pain. Always pain. Sadness. Upset stomach. Drained.

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No Spoons.

Everything hurts. Drained. Fatigued. Depressed. Fed up. Fat. Always fat. Ugly. Always ugly. Tired. Sleepy. Hurting. In pain. Always. At a loss. Not so much a crossroads as spaghetti junction!

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Swollen Feet.

Everything hurts. I need to be thin. It’s killing me carrying this weight around. I hate it. I just want to know what it’s like to be a normal size. Hurting. Sadness. Loneliness.

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Fattest.

Everything hurts. Upset. Emotional. Frustrated. Migraines. Pain. Hurting. It never ends. Lonely. A loser. Unwanted.

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Boil.

Everything hurts. I’m sweating from areas I didn’t know you could sweat from. Swollen with the heat. Uncomfortable. Unattractive. Need to be more independent. More self reliant. Hurting. Exhausted. Drained. Sadness. Always sadness. I miss the sea.

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Off Camber.

Everything hurts. More of the same. Usual nonsense. Trying to be ok. Failing mostly. Uncomfortable. Sore. A fat bitch. Eating too much.

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Choke.

Everything hurts. No one cares. No one asks if I’m ok. Really bad depression. Heavy sadness. Not at peace. Hurting. Sore. Frustrated. Less than. Sub human.

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Off.

Everything hurts. Feeling unwell. Off. Not right. Exhausted. Drained. Fatigued. Stressed. Anxiety. Depression. Sadness. Hopelessness.

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Ugly.

Everything hurts. Ashamed. Disgusting. How am I meant to have confidence in myself when I’ve got so many gross issues? I hate my bum. No matter how much I clean it, it’s always dirty. I hate hate hate it!! I’ll never find a romantic partner 😦 why does everything have to be disgusting? There’re all […]

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Sea.

Everything hurts. Painful feet. Exhausted. Sadness. Hidden sadness. Away from home. Need a break.

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