No Show.

Everything hurts. Intense trapped wind. Not feeling well. Swollen. Bloated. Chest pains. Depression. Exhaustion. Loneliness. Nearly 40 and nothing in my life. It’s breaking me. I’m broken. I’m defective. There’s obviously something wrong with me. Can’t stop the tears from falling. I won’t be missed or remembered. No one cares.

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Lonely.

Everything hurts. What will happen to me? Why can’t I make real friends? I try and try but I just end up getting used. Hurting. Not feeling very well. Pain. Sadness. At sea.

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Different.

Everything hurts. It really hurts. Deep inside and out. Heartbroken by circumstances. Heartbroken even though I’ve never been loved. Always on the outside. Really really fed up. Depression. Worthless.

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Shame.

Everything hurts. Can’t make friends. Sad. Lonely. Nausea. Pain. Feel disgusting. Body issues aren’t pretty. How will I ever find anyone to look past it and see me? Too ugly. Too obese. Too dull. Too much of a loser. Where is my community? Why do I have to stand alone?

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Tire.

Everything hurts. Frustrated and angry. In pain and sad. Too much food. Lack of willpower. Useless. Worthless.

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Fear.

Everything hurts. I don’t know how to handle being alone. I’m not coping. I’m scared to meet people as they just leave. No one reaches out to me. Hurting. In pain. Suffering. Suffocating.

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No Say.

Everything hurts. I’m blamed for everything. Misunderstood. Misread. I’m tired of it. Why am I not allowed to be heard but everyone else is? Why does that make me undesirable? How much more of myself do I have to give to keep friends around? To make friends? I’m so lost. Lonely. Hurting. Sad.

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Unwanted.

Everything hurts. How do I become someone that people like? That people want to be around? What’s wrong with me? Why do I find it so hard to be “normal”? Hurting. Even my dreams cause pain. I don’t get the happy ending in my dreams either. What’s wrong with the me? I wish someone would […]

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Bite.

Everything hurts. Been bitten by something. Sore. Tired. Achy. Sad. Lonely. Out of control.

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Solid.

Everything hurts. Stomach is rock solid. Pain. Disconnected. Discomfort. Disheartening. Sad. Angry. Irritated.

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Off.

Everything hurts. Sickness. Nauseous. Boiling up. Not well. Feeling poorly. Hurting. Alone.

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Sickness.

Everything hurts. Sickness and diarrhoea. Sadness. Frustration. So angry at my life. The emptiness. The loneliness. So unaccomplished. So scared to make connections. Afraid of the hurt. Of being left eventually.

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Disgust.

Everything hurts. Fatter and fatter. I can’t stop. The noise is too much. I’m so angry at myself. I’m angry at my body. At life itself. I’ve no back bone. I don’t rebel. I never pushed the boundaries. Weak and pathetic. A doormat. Worthless. Useless. A drain on everyone and everything. Frustrated. Upset. Lost and […]

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Sweats.

Everything hurts. Exhausted. Drained. Fatigued. Migraines. Intense. Achy. Sore. Uncomfortable. Pain. Loneliness. Emotional.

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Dreams Hurt.

Everything hurts. I used to find relief in my dreams but now it’s just hurt. I can’t fantasise anymore without reality hovering above. All my dreams are stupid. All my dreams aren’t going to come true. I live in a fantasy land that suffocates me with reality at every turn. I’ll never get the type […]

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Talking into the Abyss.

Everything hurts. I can’t breathe for the sadness in my chest. I feel heart broken. Like I’ll burst with sadness. I can’t stop the tears from falling. The negativity going round and around my mind. A rollercoaster that I can’t get off. It’s constant. Why can’t I feel happiness? I’ve tried to talk to friends […]

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Noise.

Everything hurts. Constant food noise. Louder and louder! It’s too much. Sadness. Pain. Despair.

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Going Down.

Everything hurts. More tears. More despair. More pain. More suffering. Exhausted. Drained. Alone. So lonely. It hurts. Being unwanted. I can’t stop thinking about Covid lockdowns and the fact that not one person reached out to me. No hanging out over zoom or FaceTime. Nobody cared. Nobody cares.

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Stomach.

Everything hurts. Lots of stomach ache and discomfort. Exhausted. Hate being fat. Useless. Unloved. Sad. So fed up.

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Wrinkles.

Everything hurts. I look awful. No life left in me. I hate being fat. The constant food noise! It’s so loud. I just want help and no one will help me. I’m in pain. Hurting. Sadness. Loneliness. Why can’t I find my partner? Am I that undesirable? I don’t want to be alone forever. It […]

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Hot Flushes.

Everything hurts. Night sweats. Brain fog. Hot and cold. Back ache. Migraines. Depression. Anxiety. Sadness. Pain. Always pain. Exhausted. Drained. Fed up.

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Flab.

Everything hurts. Walking on eggshells. Can’t have an opinion. What do I know about life? Held back. Behind everyone else. Hurting. Frustrated. Fat. Fatigued. A failure.

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Gross.

Everything hurts. Feeling gross and disgusting. I’m just falling apart. The heartache is crushing. Pain. Discomfort.

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